monstabean

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 23:04:08 GMT

[Edit: Nope, everyone's just an asshole.]

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 23:19:03 GMT

I did a friends cut, for one or more of these reasons;

I'm a bitch
You aren't interesting
Your entries were full of pasted msn conversations, surveys, angsty messages about someone(yes, it is just as bad as back talking) or just stupid personally messages to one person out of your 18731927192817 friends
Or
I just lost interest.

I mean, it could be that im just a bitch but in that case- bitches don't really give a fuck, do they?

Fri, 15 Apr 2005 19:21:05 GMT

It's another Friday, and all I feel like doing is being all by myself, I get along the best that way. And yes, it does make me feel extreme stupid admitting it, but all I feel like doing is hiding out, and being a hermit. I think I'm sick of the fact that I always have to be chasing fun to have it, it never just happens. And that method of doing things is tiring, and gets old fast.

I do still want to see everyone, or some- seeing everyone is awfully hard. So I am still going to Fraea's saturday as promised, and I'll catch up on my sleep tonight beforehand. And maybe I'll even do some homework, and work towards getting caught up before, summer.

I had forgotten to tell people outside of this stupid journal that I was moving, so in the past week I've brought it up and surprised both wes and andrew, and then I said something like,
"Oh right, I'm moving, did I not tell you"
This tells me that I use the internet too much for communication purposes.

Fridays are so wonderful, only an hour and a half until freedom, woopwoop.

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 04:42:17 GMT

fuck you
My mother recently sent a letter to my dad. Enclosed in that beautiful envelope of lies, it basically stated that (my mother believes,) the people I associate with are doing mind-altering substances, and also, that
I have, (and I quote) "drug issues". She also attached a list of warning signs for my dad to look for, and took the courtesy of putting the signs that apply to me in bold.
Yes, mother, I am lazy and yes, I do have decreased concern with physical appearance. Sometimes, my eyes are bloodshot and sometimes, yours are too. I am fatigued, having a five-month-long argument with people you love can be tiring. And if you haven't noticed- all of these, apply to most teenagers.
and
Along with some of the more common signs, she had a few more of these signs that didn't even apply to me.

Mom,
I, have friends that drink at parties. I have friends that smoke pot daily, yes that is right- I talk to people that smoke out of pipes and roll plants into paper. They then light it, inhale, and then exhale. And mother, I don't mind it. They smoke pot in front of me, and drink around me. I have friends who have criminal records, some for shop lifting, or maybe possession, more than one or two. I even know people, who know other people, who know other people that do the same things.
The question is, Does it mean that I'm just like them?
I have friends(yes this is plural) who do great in school, they get good grades and attend almost everyday. They go to extra curricular activities, and most of them are good at the things they do. I have friends who hold part-time, and some even full-time jobs. Some people I know don't even go to parties and other 'highschool social events'.
But tell me, Does that mean I'm just like them?

I wish we were talking, so I could tell her she is a self-righteous, ignorant, selfish, nazi with "control issues". Mom, you have all the warning signs.